Sometimes I wanna quit by Poet Deep

I have made great strides in a few years and have been assisted by great people however sometimes it seems like it would be a relief to quit music. I mean sometimes I ponder what the hell was I thinking being a provider for a family of 7 (including myself), with no economic sustenance besides working low paying 9-5 jobs and earning extras on the side with my wife. 

I see that my music is needed but I also see other areas of life that I could put my energy into. It's like a love hate relationship, most days once I get off work I have to run errands or its a must I get rest due to the fact I'm diabetic. 

I see how my children can be engaged and financially benefit from the many aspects of my music company which is called Artistry Unlimited L.L.C, from graphic design, photography, videography, marketing, and production. Something inside me won't allow me to stop, maybe it's the music I've already released, perhaps it's the music I'm about to release, or it could possibly be I know that I've yet to show how talented I am in the musical process. 

I've never had a day where I could just solely focus on songwriting or song making, I usually carve out time to make it happen and usually that comes with the computer freezing, children jumping on the floor loudly upstairs (I record at home), and a few other issues that pop up. My wife has been supportive of this endeavor which I'm grateful, I desire to have a  team, actually a partner who see the vision and the impact we could have beyond music. 

Not only do I music but I assist with running a family food business with my wife (Foodtastic Family Visions), I'm a martial artist, I just started gardening, and I work full time (and overtime lol). I am striving daily to make my vision become my reality which is to come off the plantation  (workforce) and spend my time doing what I love to do (uplifting people). 

Did I mention that I spend most of my life at the grocery store??? Anyway thanks for listening to my venting session, be on the lookout for more raw cut blogs like this and check out my latest video I did for #KeepItFreshDay @ Click here for video . Send your brother some feedback. Thank you!!!

4 comments

  • Of luhv

    Of luhv Tubman city

    I was told to build up something lucrative first. Something strong. And something every body wanna be apart of. And when that blows you really put your music behind it. Half the artist we know wasn't broke and just got it out the mud. Pplmwith structure and capital put money behind them. they ran serious dope strip , or plugs. Not all but some. To make money in music and still feed that family of that size. You would need to come to the commercial side just a tad bit. Not saying you have to deminsh morals but kinda Kendrick / Mac Miller / nas the system .... This new wave is making it hard. But there is always away I feel... And u right it's hard to feed a family of 7 AT THIS TIME doing mainly music. Butnit CAN be done ...

    I was told to build up something lucrative first. Something strong. And something every body wanna be apart of. And when that blows you really put your music behind it. Half the artist we know wasn't broke and just got it out the mud. Pplmwith structure and capital put money behind them. they ran serious dope strip , or plugs. Not all but some. To make money in music and still feed that family of that size. You would need to come to the commercial side just a tad bit. Not saying you have to deminsh morals but kinda Kendrick / Mac Miller / nas the system .... This new wave is making it hard. But there is always away I feel... And u right it's hard to feed a family of 7 AT THIS TIME doing mainly music. Butnit CAN be done ...

  • Poet Deep

    Poet Deep

    Thanks for your feedback! I agree with your point of the need to establish capital to do business. I don't agree with going to the commercial side to create appeal for their are many independent artist who have shown and proven that they can have a great following minus commercialism along with the fact there are demographics in the hip hop community that don't support commercialism (even just a little). Overall you're right, it can be done, I appreciate your encouragement, thank you.

    Thanks for your feedback! I agree with your point of the need to establish capital to do business. I don't agree with going to the commercial side to create appeal for their are many independent artist who have shown and proven that they can have a great following minus commercialism along with the fact there are demographics in the hip hop community that don't support commercialism (even just a little). Overall you're right, it can be done, I appreciate your encouragement, thank you.

  • Dara GodsGirl

    Dara GodsGirl

    I know you have felt like it or feel like it, but DON'T quit! Our people need you & your message, Bro! You & "the crew" are a great example of a BEAUTY-Full Family! Your music & messages (& nonmusical videos abt family life, relationships, health, etc)=Dopeness! CONTINUED Peace & Blessings!

    I know you have felt like it or feel like it, but DON'T quit! Our people need you & your message, Bro! You & "the crew" are a great example of a BEAUTY-Full Family! Your music & messages (& nonmusical videos abt family life, relationships, health, etc)=Dopeness! CONTINUED Peace & Blessings!

  • Poet Deep

    Poet Deep

    I appreciate your kind words sis, I won't let our people down!

    I appreciate your kind words sis, I won't let our people down!

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